12/11/25

[mossyswamptoad]

my boyfriend loves his friends more than me.
i know it now
he loves me because i give him the love he craves and all the other "needs" met
but i know in the end im more bothersome than enjoyable
oh to not be psychic anymore
i just want my man to love me unconditionally without being annoyed at my behaviors in other times. im hoping he will go back to unconditional obsession but idk how real that was.
one day someone will love me in a way where I feel it and not feel embarrassed or scared to be me.
im so scared for my life in this group
i think my boyfriend barely tolerates me.
i feel so bad I've taken over his prime college years.
oh to alcohol and being right before my limit
if i were to manifest anything i would manifest loyalty onto my man
i was black out and he made out with another man. no one knew how wasted i was
i wish this love could have been real but im just waiting until he realizes he doesnt love me, he just loves the benefits that come with a lady.
i dont understand our relationship i dont think and i hate it
i know he doesn't respect me. as much as i dont wanna leave he might have lied to me about Halloween
i might have done less than I thought while he did way more
i should just let what i suspect play out
hopefully if im right he'll leave me nicely